Tuesday, January 24, 2017
{ 1:26 AM }
the heart wants what it wants
Standstill once again.
Not sure why, is it that he loves me not or that i no longer love him the way i used to?
Is this stage normal?
What should i do with this relationship right now?
It seems like he don't give a shit once again?
Tbh, sometimes when I'm really lost and confused, honestly just want some honest opinions from him.
Or perhaps maybe some honest thoughts and feelings.
Instead, i get all the "okay" and "hmms" which all the more piss and frustrate me more.
Seriously dude, trying to make this work and all i get is "hmms" and being left hanging dry.
Sighs.
I really do not know what to do at this point of time, sometimes I'm like so heartless towards him next moment my heart softens and i apologise.
but isn't that in a sense more cruel towards him?
Im honestly very vexed right now, cry to sleep, cry to wake, cry during showers, cry during work, almost gonna cry while eating.
Do i really wanna end this relationship?
