Tuesday, October 27, 2015
{ 6:24 AM }
It's already been some time so far since the quarrel.
Somehow we went back to normal I guess ?
But to me it's still a lil diff but I just can't describe the feeling.
I just keep asking myself why we haven't split yet.
I guess this is my defense mechanism working up - pushing ppl awhile before they hurt me or I feel hurt
Sometimes I think I'm really selfish. How can I hurt him by wanting to separate so I hurt him instead of him me ?
I really love this guy but yet at the same time, idk how to love him the way he deserved to be loved.
I just wanna give him my all and best only. But if my love for him is just hurting him. Should I let him go ?
Every time I'm with him, I feel sorry toward him like I owe him smth. I feel sorry that he loves me for the person that I am.
I really don't know if we are really compatible. Maybe he's right. I'm always thinking too much. But he has no idea how I wanna just simply love him and not think of other stuff. I wished!
What shld I do about us ?