Tuesday, April 22, 2014
{ 2:00 AM }
Oh Won't You Stay With Me,
This ain't love, It's clear to see,
But Darling, Stay With Me....
The feeling when you wish there is someone to hold your hands and tell you "everythings gonna be okay".
Too bad I never knew how it felt like.
xoxo
Friday, April 18, 2014
{ 2:25 AM }
It's been a month now since I started working in AML.
Honestly I think I'm over the rough patch of the process of getting used to working there.
Think getting to know T guy and and talking to him was probably the only thing I like after they assign me to work in HY.
At least got to know another 交心 friend.
These are friggin hard to come by.
And I treasure every single one of them like S & C!!
Back to the topic..
Working is tough enough but with pressure from family with Big Mommy back and also that family being up to no good.
What should I do?
I can't split myself up into a few right.
Sighs.
My heart aches every time I look at this family....
Maybe it's because of the reluctance of working as sales person in HY that triggered my emo feel. Lol
So sister quite tolerant and understanding of me.
And I'm grateful for it.
So many times, really, so many times, I wanna heck it and just cut.
But I survived it, I manage to distract myself but sad to say I broke my record of smoking only max 6 sticks per day. (New record's like 8?)
I still got the urge to cut like a nagging reminder at the back of my head but its okay now, I know.
Cause I can control it!
Finally my tears are willing to flow today after so long!!!!
Im relieved!
Guess I'm finally back to normal and insomnia have not come knocking on my door!
Phew!
But!
That family... what do y'all want seriously???
Sometimes I just wanna fuck y'all upside down and inside out but they say not to loose my cool.
So i put with with y'all rubbish.
But don't think that my Mom will hold me back forever or it'll be the last of y'all.
Always mess up my family and people in my circle!!!
One day, just one fine day.
I'll make you all feel my wrath....
